Rio de Janeiro: 32 degrees, hot, sunny and overcast.
Today was meant to be the day I travelled, at least for the first leg. However, it has been delayed by a day for some reason, so I will now only be travelling tomorrow.
As a result, I utilised my time effectively to tackle some minor tasks. In the morning, I went to Copacabana and bought an orchid for Dona Vera, leaving it at the reception of her building. It serves as a token of appreciation for all she has done for me.
When I got home, I spent at least two hours working on my computer and the blog. I then took Perola for a walk, called Antonio, and arranged to pick up some travel tags, as I didn’t have any. The entire trip, from walking home to the park and Antonio’s building, must have been at least 5 kilometres.
I left Perola at home around 5:00 PM and went out to buy a few things my mother had asked me to pick up at the chemist. I also needed a case for my toiletries, and I found one that I liked. I estimate that all this took me another 3 or 4 kilometres. All I know is that when I got home at about 8:00 PM, I felt utterly exhausted.
I was also surprised that Yasmin had written a letter to her grandmother in England. I’m not sure if it’s to wish her well, to ask her to come to England, or to complain about me. I think it’s more likely the second or, even more so, the third option.
I also bought an orchid for Nalva as a token of appreciation for her hospitality during my stay. Yasmin presented it to her, and I believe Nalva appreciated the small gift as a token of my gratitude.
I’m tired of spending money; I had to sell some of my cryptocurrency to cover the expenses. I’ve noticed that I don’t particularly enjoy spending money, which I believe is a good thing. At least I have a fixed limit on each occasion to know precisely how much I’d like to spend—logical mental limits. When I feel that this limit is being exceeded, alarm bells ring in my mind, disrupting everything.
In the evening, at the close of the day, I felt that I had reached my limit, and it was time to cease spending and head to England; enough is enough. I believe I’m ready; no, I’m sure I’m ready.
Both ups and downs have marked the six months I have spent with Nalva and Yasmin. I have undertaken numerous personal tasks and resolved various matters that perhaps could not have been addressed if I had not been able to stay with them during this time. As a result, I am deeply grateful.
It has been perfect for me; I hope the differences between Yasmin and myself are only temporary, owing to her age and the situation. Again, only time will tell. I wish for my relationship with my ex-wife, the mother of my younger daughter, to be cordial, respectful, and characterized by a strong degree of friendship.
I admire Nalva and sincerely wish her the best for the future. I believe this has much more to do with her than with Yasmin or myself, as I think that only we can change ourselves and shape our future, not others.
However, if I can assist her in any way within my means, I am here for her, and I believe she is aware of this as well. Nevertheless, my support extends only as far as she takes responsibility and is accountable for her actions, as I am not her father and do not wish to be a father figure.
Ultimately, she is the mother of my youngest daughter, and I respect and admire her for that. I hope that, in some ways, we shall continue to maintain a lifelong friendship.
In bed by 10 pm.
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Richard
