Wordsley, Stourbridge, England: 8 degrees, cold, overcast, and rainy.
I will be officially on holiday in a week and a half until the new year.
I was going to go to Sheffield this coming weekend to visit my brother and his family, but after talking to my mother, I think it would be better to go for the new year.
The idea is to arrive by train on the 26th or 27th and return on the 2nd or 3rd, either by train or he will bring me back. I will probably buy a return ticket. The train fares in England are expensive compared with Brazil, but they’re worth it!
I’m a little apprehensive about going to my brothers, as the family division is cavernous. There will definitely be some kind of collateral damage or loss from both sides. My mother will be jealous even though she is trying to hide it and control herself, but I can already feel it.
As the head of his family, my brother wants to show me his position, especially in front of his wife and children. I know that in the past, both he and his wife have talked behind my back, which disappointed me a little. I’m not going there to cause a problem or to get involved in some kind of who said what; I don’t care about the past, etc, I want to relax and have a good time.
It is the end of the year!!!
This has been a very good year for me, and I’m very grateful for it. I spent the last three New Year’s, either going to bed early and not celebrating or just celebrating alone, drinking a bottle of Prosecco in front of the beach, watching the fireworks, or not even going out but staying home.
In those moments, I always felt that having a quiet New Year’s Eve without the pomp and celebrations would be good luck for the rest of the year; in contrast, going against the traditional grain with the rest of the world in terms of celebrating for bringing in the new year.
As I have said before, this year has been exceptional, so maybe it has worked and given me luck, but only being three years late!
I also want to go to visit my brother because he is my brother, and despite our differences, I love and respect him as a brother. We have very little in common despite our blood, and as I have said many times, I admire him for being what he has turned out to be. He could have gone the wrong way in life, but he chose the right way, becoming a dedicated, loyal, and faithful father, family man, and husband.
Last but not least, my niece and nephew.
The last time I was in England, I think Charlotte was four or five years old; now she’s in her mid-20s, so a long time has passed. Luke wasn’t born yet; now he’s 16, more or less the same age as Yasmin, so spending some time with them will be very nice.
I wanted to buy some presents for them when I was in Brazil, but the logistics of packing, carrying and money were also a problem. I will buy something for both before and after my visit.
At the moment, I’m trying to hold on to as much money as possible, as I want to buy a new camera for filming. I know the one that I like. It has just been launched onto the market, and it is specifically for videography and content creation, which I can use next year for my YouTube channel.
When it comes to the next year, my priorities are content, the quality of my content, and more money. I want to make as much money as possible. However, I’m unsure if I will stay longer than planned in England or return to Brazil!
Brazil is in a terrible situation, and I think it will get much worse before it gets better in the short term. So, there is no real rush to get back; only my daughters are there. They have their own lives, and depending on what happens in the future, they can come and visit or even live with me in England whenever they want.
It sounds silly, but I would like some kind of sign to show me whether to stay in England or go back to Brazil. Even if I went back to Brazil, would it be permanent, or would it just be temporary, eventually returning to England or moving on to somewhere else?
Everything has been good until now, and I am grateful for that. I am expecting someone or something to go wrong, by throwing some kind of spanner in the works to spoil everything. It always eventually happens when I go to England, but like I have just said, I am grateful for the time I am spending here.
In bed by 11 p.m.
Thank you.
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Richard
