Wordsley, Stourbridge, England: 6 degrees, dark, grey, cold and a lot of rain.
A freezing and shitty English day again. It has rained all day, and I don’t think it’s going to stop until tomorrow.
I had drunk a couple of glasses of wine and beer the night before, and because of this, I’m feeling the effects. I’m feeling too slow for my liking; it is not a hangover. I’m just slow, taking my time with movement, thinking, and doing everything.
I’m also feeling bloated, alcohol swells you, but overeating does too! Living with my mother is not easy in terms of keeping my figure, my ideal weight, because she is constantly wanting to feed me.
Even though sometimes I tell her that I don’t want to eat anything tonight, she will eventually find a way to feed me something and a little more down the road, and at the same time, she has no problem commenting that I’m getting a belly.
When I was living with Nalva, it was much the same. I would have a decent lunch, having already decided not to have dinner. When Nalva arrived home from work, she would start cooking, and even if I didn’t want to eat, I would eat; the temptation would be too great. Nalva cooks very well. We should know ourselves, and I know that I can go without eating for a long time if there is nothing in front of me.
But if there is, and somebody puts something to eat in front of me, I will eat it. If it happens again, and somebody puts another plate of food in front of me, I will eat it again. If it happens again, I will eat it again. I am sure I have little self-control in this situation, so I need to be able to say no. I can say no in other situations, but in some situations involving food, it’s not easy; it is too much of a temptation.
So, based on my observations with my mother and Nalva, what are some of the rules or behaviours of a woman, such as a wife, girlfriend, or even a mother?
Is it to slowly kill off the husband, the spouse, the boyfriend, etc, through overeating, being overweight and eventually morbid obesity? Slowly dying from obesity, so the spouse leaves a pension, money, property, etc., and can continue living to strike again another day.
No, I want to say that our female partners and relations have this innate sense of care, and that food is a form of comfort and love. They are aware of comforting their loved ones through food, but indirectly and slowly killing them at the same time.
Obesity kills, and doing exercise is not enough to reduce the problem of being overweight. We need to say no, deny, and sometimes look at foods as persona non grata, not our best friend.
The French have the perfect philosophy about food, where they choose carefully with fresh produce, especially from local street markets and fairs, and cook in small amounts. Just enough to sustain you, but not sufficient to have an orgasm. It is difficult to meet a fat French person; it isn’t impossible, but it’s difficult. It is easy to find an English or American and sometimes even an Italian, overweight person.
Here in England, I only eat twice a day, skipping breakfast, like in Brazil, a sandwich for lunch and a typical dinner in the evening, which is killing me before going to bed. In Brazil, it is the opposite: a good lunch and a sandwich or snack for dinner. Just perfect for me.
The act of fasting in general has been practised for thousands of years across various religions, cultures, and tribes. Over the last twenty or so years, intermittent dieting has gained considerable force and popularity, which I have been trying to adhere to since separating from Nalva eight years ago.
For me, to be successful with this, I have to have little food at home or in the fridge, or it will go quickly, and downhill. Having the minimum amount of food at home is a deterrent for me. If I were more disciplined, I would not need to resort to such extreme measures.
However, we need to know ourselves, our flaws, and hope to compensate in some way. I only have a normal amount of food at home, and the fridge is better stocked when Yasmin is with me.
Having the minimum, not just in terms of food, but in many aspects of our lives, is also a deterrent for many other things and a form of discipline, as well as a kind of luxury.
Arnold Schwarzenegger often says that the easy thing in life is to gain weight and be overweight.
Thank you.
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Richard
