Wordsley, Stourbridge, England: 11 degrees, chilly, a little sunny, slightly overcast but pleasant.
It is the first day of the week, and it is so good to have a good weekend before you begin the week on Monday.
My weekend, going out with Julie twice on Saturday and once on Sunday, contributed a lot to a great weekend and the beginning of the week. It was also good to lay the way with my mother, giving boundaries and showing her what is and isn’t acceptable.
My Monday has begun well, thanks to the weekend, and now it is time to focus on what I have to do for the rest of the week and towards the end of the month.
During the day, I got to speak to both Jessica and Yasmin. Jessica had sent me a message asking how everything was, and I replied, and that was about it. My daughter sends me her fortnightly standard message, asking how everything is. I reply, asking if everything was good, and that is it. It’s her way, and how our relationship really is, unfortunately. I would like us to be closer, but that’s just the way it is.
Is it my fault? Maybe it is. I would like to fix it. Again, only time will tell. Obviously, I love her, and I want the best for her, and I think that she knows that and that in any situation, I’m there for her as her father.
I had sent a message to Yasmin later in the day, and promptly after she arrived home from school, she called me, which was quite a pleasant surprise. She, like all teenagers at school, has a ton of studies, homework, projects, presentations and tests or exams.
She seems to be doing well; she’s overcoming her difficulties by herself, which I think is very important for her now and for the future. She told me about how Rio is very hot at the moment with the thermal sensation in the 60s last weekend, which is completely crazy even for Carioca standards.
I asked about how it was between her and her mother, and she said that everything was good. Nalva is working a lot, directly through the weekends, and she’ll only have a couple of days off at the end of this week. We talked a little more, she said that she had messaged Jessica, and Jessica replied, so everything was OK.
I told her that I loved her and that I was with ‘saudades’, which means I’m missing her in Portuguese, and she said she was too. I also told her that I would deposit some money in her bank account tomorrow, so everything was even better.
We said our goodbyes, and I think we both were happy. I miss the time when I lived in Copacabana because there, we would often go out for long walks together. For some reason, while walking, we would lay it all out: our issues, disappointments, insecurities, guidance, grudges, and doubts, etc.
If I stay in England and she comes over, we would be able to spend some quality time together if it were for an extended period. She would be able to improve her English, which is currently very poor, and gain a better understanding of England, her father’s culture, and her father.
This is the big question mark at the moment: when do I go back to Brazil, and when I do, how long will I stay there for? I can buy a flight ticket at any time, but it would be better to purchase it at least two months in advance to save money.
Yasmin’s birthday is in June, so or I return to Brazil before her birthday. Alternatively, I could pay for her to come over during her school holidays, which are usually at the end of June or the beginning of July.
Thinking about it now, for her to come over in the middle of the year would be perfect. One month in England in the summer would be the ideal present for her. I also think that her mother would not have any problem with it; my mother would love it, and I could spend some quality time with her and get to know Julie, too!
As I was busy throughout the day, with gardening in the morning, exercise, classes, and things to do in the street, I wasn’t able to talk to Julie until early evening. She said she was feeling a little insecure because we hadn’t spoken during the day, but we talked, and everything was fine.
Our relationship is going in the right direction. I like her company, the conversation is very good, and for me, she is very sexy, which means I think that she’s hot and extremely attractive, and I haven’t felt or said that about a woman for a long time.
We have to build on it, and let’s see where it goes!
In bed by midnight.
Thank you.
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Richard
